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domingo, 24 de marzo de 2013

Truth


I found out I had a draft on my blog entitled “Truth”, it has been there since last year, and I wonder, why didn't I finished it, it was empty, it has no meaning.

I know this is more like a “teenage angsty diary” more than a serious blog, but I consider it an escape window to all my anger and my “writer's trauma”. So I basically use it to release some word vomit.

After the proper explanation, I have to keep wondering, why did I started a blog entry with the name “Truth” was I about to spill the beans on how I was feeling in the moment, or was I so miserable I was about to rage-quit life, but before I decided to tell some ugly truths about the people I know.

I seriously ignore it, maybe I was not ready to write it in the moment so I left it only with the title to think of it and rewrite it later, I vaguely remember I had a draft on a word document, but it might has gone missing since I formatted the lap top.

Anyhow, its lost, like the truth I was about to write in that moment of isolation.

But now I think, maybe, just maybe, that was the truth, the emptiness on the draft was all I had to say.

Maybe it was the truth of how I was feeling at the moment, so blank, so unsure about everything, maybe it was so unbearable, I couldn't write anything.

Right now, for me, the “Truth” is a mystery.


sábado, 23 de marzo de 2013

Happy birthday. (how...)


It's almost a year since you're gone and there's a ton of thing I’d like to tell you both, how I got promoted, how I deal with life, how I’m not able to continue with a serious relationship, how lovely is my new broken cat, how alone I feel even when I’m surrounded by the people I love and still love me back, how I understood how terrible I hurt you both, how happy I am about you two being happy, how much writing aches and reliefs, how I decided I want to become a comic writer, how afraid I'm about taking this new carrier, but specially how much I miss you in my life.

Instead, the only thing I can say is:

Happy birthday to you both.