Today I Just said, "I'm bored of life", I never realized I've
been feeling like this since November of the last year.
I realized I feel so underachieving, that it hurts.
It is not about me not doing anything, because I know
I'm still doing things, I noticed how to manage my depressions, I know what to
do, I've learnt that I can tell certain people when I feel bad, and taught them
if by any chance they get sick of it, they will tell me, and I can stop.
Well I know, it is not about that, I guess is about
me not doing something I like, figuring out what’s wrong and what to do, yes, I
know it I good and everything, but, I want to be able to do more thing, much
more than playing video games, and reading, or watching series, and trying to
write, yes I love to writs, it is awesome, but I need more. I need my music, I
need my guitar, I need to learn another language, I need to learn things, and I
need to interact with more people who share this craving for more things.
I really need to get back studying something I like,
I mean I liked to study journalism, a lot, but I learnt everything I liked, and
decided I like something else, I decided because of all that happened, that I didn’t
want to be somewhere I felt miserable, now I want to study literature, but I let
myself auto sabotage every chance of studying or trying to get into the
subject. I need to change before this boredom stays.
