Truth

I found out I had a draft on my blog entitled “Truth”, it has been there since last year, and I wonder, why didn't I finished it, it was empty, it has no meaning.

I know this is more like a “teenage angsty diary” more than a serious blog, but I consider it an escape window to all my anger and my “writer's trauma”. So I basically use it to release some word vomit.

After the proper explanation, I have to keep wondering, why did I started a blog entry with the name “Truth” was I about to spill the beans on how I was feeling in the moment, or was I so miserable I was about to rage-quit life, but before I decided to tell some ugly truths about the people I know.

I seriously ignore it, maybe I was not ready to write it in the moment so I left it only with the title to think of it and rewrite it later, I vaguely remember I had a draft on a word document, but it might has gone missing since I formatted the lap top.

Anyhow, its lost, like the truth I was about to write in that moment of isolation.

But now I think, maybe, just maybe, that was the truth, the emptiness on the draft was all I had to say.

Maybe it was the truth of how I was feeling at the moment, so blank, so unsure about everything, maybe it was so unbearable, I couldn't write anything.

Right now, for me, the “Truth” is a mystery.

Meh

Es la segunda vez que intento llevar una bitácora, diario, blog, etc, en el cual poner y expresar como me siento y esas cosas que la gente con titulo en psiquiatria o psicologia te piden que hagas, la verdad lo empiezo a sentir un poco necesario y pues como no me gusta eso de decírselo a mis amigos pues abrí esta cosa, como primera entrada decidí que todo esto apesta, no veo porque la gente decide que TODO el Internet pueda enterarse de lo que uno sienta o piense, esa necesidad enferma de demostrar como uno existe en un plano llamado "la Red" pero en fin eso ya seria contestado en un futuro, o en el pasado por Lain. de acuerdo se que hasta ahora mi discurso es un tanto... como decirlo, INCONGRUENTE, como criticar algo que estoy haciendo, pues damas y caballero, niños y niñas, es lo que llamamos: Autocritica, así es, abuso de la autocritica para poder tener una paz mental y anímica conmigo y por consiguiente con mis amigos, contactos y conocidos, es todo por hoy tal vez en la noche empiece a escribir mas guarradas :P