Happy birthday. (how...)

It's almost a year since you're gone and there's a ton of thing I’d like to tell you both, how I got promoted, how I deal with life, how I’m not able to continue with a serious relationship, how lovely is my new broken cat, how alone I feel even when I’m surrounded by the people I love and still love me back, how I understood how terrible I hurt you both, how happy I am about you two being happy, how much writing aches and reliefs, how I decided I want to become a comic writer, how afraid I'm about taking this new carrier, but specially how much I miss you in my life.

Instead, the only thing I can say is:

Happy birthday to you both.